Wednesday, March 28, 2012

a girl & horses

Cowboys & horses remind me of my grandpa. 

For my grandpa was the most important cowboy in my life.

Recycled Horses Top

My grandpa wore a cowboy hat, cowboy boots,
jeans, snap up western shirts, & bolo ties.

Upcycled Jeans

He was a good daddy to my mom. That 's what she called him, Daddy. Her brothers & sisters would tease her that she was his favorite.

Close up of Upcycled Jeans

My mom took care of my grandpa, at her house, when he was dying of cancer.

White Horse Earrings
My grandpa had three horses.
One horse was named Candy.
She was golden, like a wheat field blonde.

Pendant Necklace

He had a horse named Stormy. She was dark as midnight. Then Stormy had a son named Prince,
 but no one rode him.

Messenger Bag

Candy & Stormy were the first horses I remember riding.  
I learned to ride a bicycle on my grandpa's 10 speed bike.
My grandpa took me on my first ride on a motorcycle. 

Running Horses Beaded Bracelet

Sometimes I dream about my grandpa. In my dreams he's wise. He seems to have all the answers, when I all I have are questions. In my dreams he tries to comfort me. 

Band of Horses Tank

In my dreams he says, "It's gonna be ok sis."

In real life, my grandpa called his daughters & granddaughters, "sis."

Horse Leggings
I don't think my grandpa called my grandma "sis."
I think he called her "mother," or "woman."

 He also called her by her name, Emily.

Wild Horses Jersey Dress

My grandpa had a mug someone bought him it said, "D@m# I'm Good." 

I wonder if he believed he was.

Tie Dye Dress

Some of you asked me to show you closer images of my horse drawings from a couple weeks ago.
This is how I used them. 
Art Journal pg. 1

I looked at photos of my grandpa & drew the cowboy images in the shape of his silhouette.
Art Journal pg. 2

Art Journal pg. 3

Art Journal pg. 4

I can still hear him call us "sis." I wish he was still here. I wish cancer didn't kill him. I wish I'd known him better. I wish I'd loved him more. I wish I was wise.

Little me in my grandpa's cowboy boots.
Now you can say you've seen me
in my underwear.
It's a good thing I was maybe only 4.

I wonder if they are all in heaven having a party.
Maybe my grandpa is singing with the angels.
Maybe he's an angel.
Well at least he doesn't have to go to the store again for Grandma. He sure did get sick of going to the store, over & over again.  :)


  1. I so wanna make those jeans.. and I am tellin everyone I seen you in only your cowboy boots now... great story and love the horses your draw... Hugs

  2. Oh, Teddi, this was just lovely. Just lovely.

  3. Teddi this post moved me. I also miss my grampa so badly...he was so strong, wise, smart...he got Alzheimer instead so I saw him dying day by day. It's so cool your grampa was a cowboy ! He left great memories in you and a part of him still lives in you.
    That pic of you as a kid is so cute ! Lovely !
    Now I have to hurry up as it's half past midnight here and I have to wake up at seven tomorrow...and I still haven't done all my evening routine...including taking make up off ! I feel so tired I can't get up from my chair, LOL.
    Many kisses !

    Fashion and Cookies

  4. PS Your drawings are so beautiful ! You're very talented and also your posts are always a mixture of beautiful images, personal things and this :-*

  5. This is such a beautiful post. Your grandpa would be proud. I love the beaded horse jewelry so much! And you in your underwear! bahaha toooooo cute!

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  7. So nice you did a post abou
    your grandpa and your mom was
    so caring to took care of your grandpa when
    he was dying of cancer.
    Awww! You baby photo made me smile :-)

  8. Your upcycled jeans are a work of art! Your grandfather sounds so special.

  9. Ow, your gandpa sounds sweet and grateful, call daughter or grandau "sis" :) your drawing is so great :) Love art here.

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  10. What a touching post! I miss my grandpa too...So cool to know your grandpa was a cute. I like your cowboy inspiration, your pictures are great, I was scrutinizing every one of them. I like the handmade style. And your journal, they are beautiful...maybe you should start a journalling blog. The images and montages are lovely


  11. What a wonderful post!! I love horses....there so magical!!

  12. This is such a warm felt and beautiful post girl and very dear to my heart too because I lost someone very close to me that love love horses so this is very touching and beautiful to me.

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  13. I just saw you have a Deedee among your comments! Wow, this is my nickname!
    But that is not the reason I am writing, of course. I want to say you are wise, I am sure you are. Your art journals are amazing, and your grandpa was, as well. Or better, he is! Love never ceases, as I wrote one of these days. Through our love towards our beloved ones, they live. They go on living. I am sure of that. Through us!
    Have a great weekend, Teddi, and thank you for your always nice words towards me... I am on a journey meeting myself, and it's so good to read your comments!

  14. I'm so sorry about your grandfather, dear Teddi. I'm sure he knew how much you loved and respected him and now he watches over you with other angels :)
    since I love my grandfather very much, I really enjoyed reading your thoughts and all those beautiful details. and I also like the selection of photos. horses are such beautiful animals, so strong and proud.

    Maikeni blogi - part of me

  15. Lovely post-i love that tie dye horse dress and the leggings too :D

  16. I don't know, should I?

    Very cute post, I love the first image.

    / Avy

  17. SO FUNNY!

  18. this is a lovely post.. I think your grandfather would be happy to see what you wrote.. I've never ridden a horse.. I'd love to though...
    btw.. did you see you won Style marmalade's giveaway?? congrats! I got as excited as if I were you when I saw your name there haha...

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  20. Ted! So I did not know ... is because of the same language ... heheh ... how nice! I play drums!
    I love cowboy look ... and I think it has everything to do with Texas, I love horses and everything looks fantastic! =)

  21. What a beautiful post Teddi- it brought tears to my eyes and reminded me of my own grandfather. He sounds like a wonderful man- it's so nice you have great memories of him!

  22. Aww. So much emotion in so few words. I like that you ended on a bittersweet note.

  23. Isn't it funny how our relationships in our childhood stay with us for many years? This is a nice tribute to your grandpa and I hope you are able to make amends for the things you wish you could go back and change.

    You draw beautifully. Your posts are like a stream of consciousness and so unique.

  24. This is beautiful, Teddi. I can only imagine he would love readin' this. :) My grandpa was my hero (still is), but he died, too. I still think about him all the time, though.

    AWESOME choice of pieces. :)


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