a girl & horses

Cowboys & horses remind me of my grandpa. 
For my grandpa was the most important cowboy in my life.

Recycled Horses Top

My grandpa wore a cowboy hat, cowboy boots,
jeans, snap up western shirts, & bolo ties.

Upcycled Jeans

He was a good daddy to my mom. That 's what she called him, Daddy. Her brothers & sisters would tease her that she was his favorite.

Close up of Upcycled Jeans

My mom took care of my grandpa, at her house, when he was dying of cancer.

White Horse Earrings

My grandpa had three horses.
One horse was named Candy.
She was golden, like a wheat field blonde.

Pendant Necklace

He had a horse named Stormy. She was dark as midnight. Then Stormy had a son named Prince,
 but no one rode him.

Messenger Bag

Candy & Stormy were the first horses I remember riding.  
I learned to ride a bicycle on my grandpa's 10 speed bike.
My grandpa took me on my first ride on a motorcycle. 

Running Horses Beaded Bracelet

Sometimes I dream about my grandpa. In my dreams he's wise. He seems to have all the answers, when I all I have are questions. In my dreams he tries to comfort me. 

Band of Horses Tank

In my dreams he says, "It's gonna be ok sis."
In real life, my grandpa called his daughters & granddaughters, "sis."

Horse Leggings

 
I don't think my grandpa called my grandma "sis."
I think he called her "mother," or "woman."
 He also called her by her name, Emily.

Wild Horses Jersey Dress

My grandpa had a mug someone bought him it said, "D@m# I'm Good." 
I wonder if he believed he was.

Tie Dye Dress

Some of you asked me to show you closer images of my horse drawings from a couple weeks ago.

This is how I used them. 

Art Journal pg. 1

I looked at photos of my grandpa & drew the cowboy images in the shape of his silhouette.

Art Journal pg. 2

Art Journal pg. 3

Art Journal pg. 4

I can still hear him call us "sis." I wish he was still here. I wish cancer didn't kill him. I wish I'd known him better. I wish I'd loved him more. I wish I was wise.

Little me in my grandpa's cowboy boots.

Now you can say you've seen me
in my underwear.
It's a good thing I was maybe only 4.

I wonder if they are all in heaven having a party.
Maybe my grandpa is singing with the angels.
Maybe he's an angel.
Well at least he doesn't have to go to the store again for Grandma. He sure did get sick of going to the store, over & over again.  :)