a girl & horses

Cowboys & horses remind me of my grandpa. 
For my grandpa was the most important cowboy in my life.

Recycled Horses Top

My grandpa wore a cowboy hat, cowboy boots,
jeans, snap up western shirts, & bolo ties.

Upcycled Jeans

He was a good daddy to my mom. That 's what she called him, Daddy. Her brothers & sisters would tease her that she was his favorite.

Close up of Upcycled Jeans

My mom took care of my grandpa, at her house, when he was dying of cancer.

White Horse Earrings

My grandpa had three horses.
One horse was named Candy.
She was golden, like a wheat field blonde.

Pendant Necklace

He had a horse named Stormy. She was dark as midnight. Then Stormy had a son named Prince,
 but no one rode him.

Messenger Bag

Candy & Stormy were the first horses I remember riding.  
I learned to ride a bicycle on my grandpa's 10 speed bike.
My grandpa took me on my first ride on a motorcycle. 

Running Horses Beaded Bracelet

Sometimes I dream about my grandpa. In my dreams he's wise. He seems to have all the answers, when I all I have are questions. In my dreams he tries to comfort me. 

Band of Horses Tank

In my dreams he says, "It's gonna be ok sis."
In real life, my grandpa called his daughters & granddaughters, "sis."

Horse Leggings

 
I don't think my grandpa called my grandma "sis."
I think he called her "mother," or "woman."
 He also called her by her name, Emily.

Wild Horses Jersey Dress

My grandpa had a mug someone bought him it said, "D@m# I'm Good." 
I wonder if he believed he was.

Tie Dye Dress

Some of you asked me to show you closer images of my horse drawings from a couple weeks ago.

This is how I used them. 

Art Journal pg. 1

I looked at photos of my grandpa & drew the cowboy images in the shape of his silhouette.

Art Journal pg. 2

Art Journal pg. 3

Art Journal pg. 4

I can still hear him call us "sis." I wish he was still here. I wish cancer didn't kill him. I wish I'd known him better. I wish I'd loved him more. I wish I was wise.

Little me in my grandpa's cowboy boots.

Now you can say you've seen me
in my underwear.
It's a good thing I was maybe only 4.

I wonder if they are all in heaven having a party.
Maybe my grandpa is singing with the angels.
Maybe he's an angel.
Well at least he doesn't have to go to the store again for Grandma. He sure did get sick of going to the store, over & over again.  :)

scarlet

My ode to crimson things of scarlet.

Heart Print Dress

Jason Wu 2011 Fall RTW

Moschino Cheap & Chic Cutout Pump

Miss Selfridge Red Braid Trim Coat

Jason Wu 2011 Fall RTW

Issa 2011 Fall RTW

ASOS DRESS

Aigner 2011 Fall RTW

My nephew wearing a red guitar.

My niece riding my guy's shoulders.

My other niece riding her dad's shoulders.

My twin nieces together.

Little me on my grandpa's lap.

My favorite board game was Clue,
from age 10 until adulthood. 

Miss Scarlet was my favorite character to play,
because she was pretty, & she got to go first.

I also liked Clue the movie see the trailer here.



Here's a song I like called,
 Red at Night by Gaslight Anthem.

Red At Night by The Gaslight Anthem

"Was a blood red sky on the morning tide
Was a cold wind blowing when I left that night
And the morning bells rang, alright, alright
Shoulda stayed home with you that night
Ain't nobody played the fool like I
Ain't nobody played the fool like I ...

...It's a red sky night and I'm doing alright
It's a red sky night and I'm doing just fine" 

my grandpa

Somebody else's birthday is coming, but he's not living to celebrate it either. 

I dream about my grandpa more than I thought I would, and he calls me Sis, like he did all of us girls. I used to call him Gramps, but Grumps would probably have been more appropriate. it?

Yeah he was hard headed, but so am I.
He loved just like he played though, which was hard too. He's the one who took me for my first ride on a horse.

He took me for my first motorcycle ride too.
Yes, my grandpa owned horses, a blue Chevy pick up, and a motorcycle. 

My grandpa could sing, and tell a good dirty joke. When I got married the card he gave me was titled "The Joy of Sox" (the card was all about socks, or was it?)

 That was my grandpa buzzed haircut with bolo ties and cowboy boots or button up shirts, jeans and belt buckles, or jean overalls, work coveralls,
 and white v-necked t-shirt's. 

He ate bowls of ice cream with bananas. He liked my mom's tomato soup cake. He made hamburger gravy on toast, and called it something else. For a time, he carried his lunches to work in my Strawberry Shortcake or my brother's Empire Strikes Back lunch boxes. 
He was incredibly human with fallacies and all.

Do I dare say, and darn proud of it!