there was a book, a map, an art project. i ripped the pages. i tore them up, and out. i was trying to create this artist map idea. i wanted lines of snow, but it didn't work. it wasn't working. i ruined it. i messed it up. i made a mistake. i should have left the book alone. i should have kept it closed, or the idea to myself. it felt undone and unfinished. i didn't think it was complete. meaning maybe i needed a new perspective, new eyes, a new point of view. i needed to rework it. look at it a new way, see and distance, or use different materials. i needed to let go of what i thought i wanted, and try something, see something, use something else, something new, something different.