poisoned heart

"The story of my life is quicker than the wink of an eye. The story of love is hello and good-bye until we meet again" -Jimi Hendrix

..."Dee Dee was extremely clever and prolific as far as constantly coming up with new songs. That was all he had to do: write, create, and perform. I took care of all the rest. In all our years together, Dee Dee never even had to change as much as a light bulb-he would probably opt for buying a new fixture instead"...

..."Dee Dee was like Peter Pan his doctors actually said that he had "Peter Pan syndrome" as everyone was getting older and more mature and responsible, he continued refusing to grow up. He wanted to be young forever in his mind, and this was a big part of out eventual breakup"... 

..."The band witnessed first hand the physical abuse that I was subject to"...
..."Dee Dee started beating me, pulling my hair from my head, punching me in the face until he had me on the floor of the van and stomping on my head with his steel-toed boots. What did I do? Was it my fault they were out of his brand of cigarettes? Everyone just watched, and no one came to my rescue..."

..."It was clear to me then that I was still hoping for something that was never gonna happen. I realized I had to let go once and for all, or he would drag me down with him. He tried to change, but eventually the demons within and self-destructiveness finally won him over. I was completely numb by now. I couldn't even cry; I couldn't feel anything. I was sick to my stomach with grief. To this day, I carry the emotional scars from living in an abusive relationship. I don't believe it ever leaves you. To this very day I still flinch at the raise of a hand. It's an automatic and spontaneous response that will stay with me for life..." 

..."I don't look at divorce as failure. Sometimes marriages and relationships end, and we have to accept that. Despite everything that had happened, it's not like I could just swear off those old feelings. We spoke at least once a day for years, and we still deeply cared for one another. You don't stop loving someone overnight, and I never stopped loving Dee Dee"...